This is my story of personal empowerment and aligning with my purpose. My hope is that you can see through the process of healing old pains and returning to love, we can become limitless.
You may know me from teaching a class in your salon, hearing me host the Limitless Hairdresser podcast, or maybe we have become friends through social media. You may just be meeting me for the first time now! Hey, I’m Kelli Mason! I play many roles in the life, I am a hairdresser, salon owner, podcast host, educator, mama, wife, daughter, sister, friend, artist, yogi, meditator, human, and most importantly I have discovered that I am the light illuminating inside all of those roles.
I’m totally in love with my messy, obscure, beautiful, artsy, and sometimes upside down world.
The beauty industry has my heart and a large part of my mission the last fear years has been to bring insight and broaden the perspective of what was readily available at our finger tips like 👊🏻creating a business you love, building a brand with confidence, and being happy with whatever phase you are at in your career & life.
But that doesn’t even begin to SCRATCH THE SURFACE! Those are all great things, don’t get me wrong, however that inspiration was only a nudge to get this Limitless Hairdresser ball rolling and get out of my own fears.
Here is what’s really up……..No filter, because I think you need to hear this, and I’m ready to share.👇🏼
You see, I wasn’t always this certain in my purpose or my power. I was a very, very, very, lost and confused soul...Yeah, all those positive posts I make now, that was totally not how I felt. When I was 13 I started suffering from depression. So bad that I decided one day that my life was not worth living and I decided to take my own life. The universe had other plans for me because, I survived. I couldn’t even bring myself to say the words suicide until this last year. I would tremble with shame, embarrassment, and feel the sting of the pain I caused myself and those around me for so long. It’s a silent kind of suffering that is indescribable. Just a faint, constant screaming in the back of your mind of, “you that you are bad, wrong, something is not right within you…you are small” on repeat. Life in general is a constant battle of the mind, throw in depression and strap in...there is a lot of inner work to do.
(Note: This is my story of battling depression and recovering from the pain that I have experienced. In no way am I discounting the experiences of others or denying modern medicine as a reputable source for treatment. This is from my personal experience and I realize we all have different paths.)
When we are yearning to heal and we don’t really know how, we end up shoving things so deeply down to drown out the voice. As we get older and time moves on we don’t even know what pain is coming from where anymore. We feel dull and life seems to just go through motions. I felt that way for a very long time. Happy and “normal” up close, but distant and disconnected. Hiding in fear, shame, and unworthiness.
The next 6 years were a very rocky road filled with ups and downs. Some days great some days low again a rattled teen craving deeply for some meaning and purpose.
After a series of unbearably low months when I was 19, I found myself so close to the thoughts of that 13 year old version of me. I failed out of college and I was completely in my head listening to stories I had created of being unloved and without purpose. I was far, far away from my heart.
If you’ve read this far THANK YOU, I appreciate you! I promise this story gets BRIGHTER, empowered, and I hope very helpful for you on your own personal journey.
💇🏽♀️💇🏽♀️Something amazing happened though....I got a second chance. I loaded all my belongings into my little white vibe and made the 24 hour trek from Texas to Michigan to live with my parents. As I sat silent, despondent, and numb…a glimmer of hope peeked through.
I started to plan. The only way to get to a destination is to the have an end result in mind…so off I went to make it so. I enrolled in the local cosmetology school, got a job as a waitress at an Asian bistro (learned some mad chopstick skills), had really bad beauty school hair 🙋🏽♀️, and saved all the cash I made in a little tin box and started to get my life together.
I fell in LOVE! I became obsessed with the artistry and connection I got to have with clients. I was shown so much gratitude while crafting looks and being of service. They were thankful for ME??!!
I immediately started to feel like I had a PURPOSE. I knew this is what I was made for! How things can change if we ready, willing, and desperate to make a change!
Fast forward 10 years and I had grew my dream clientele, opened a salon, been traveling the US teaching for a company, got married, had 2 kids, and started my first education company. Holy wow---I should be on top of the world....right??
👉🏻The only problem? Things started to fall apart. I got high on my ego in a new way. Thinking that all of this materialistic success would make the pain disappear. My dreams were fleeting. I wasn’t in my power and started to feel lost. All.up.in.my.head. As I hungered for more thinking that would solve my problems, I followed what other people had done that seemed “happy and successful”. I didn’t find my happiness there…it lead me to feeling stuck in someone else’s dream.
🤯What am I meant for? What am I supposed to be doing now? Why do I feel stuck? Why isn't this enough anymore? Will I ever feel happy?
🧘🏽♀️These were the questions I started to ask myself.
🌟Little did I know, the answers were all inside. I just had to tap in, shut up, let go, and step into my superpower that was ready to be unlocked…..
I was in a place where I was totally bombing this personal growth thing—I was resistant and stubborn to be who I was meant to be. I was stuck, stuck, stuck, in fear, doubt, worry, uncertainty, and unworthiness? How on earth do you get out of that mess? Time to get real vulnerable (common theme here!) and tap into the WHY.
A simple yet POWERFUL word: why?
Why am I doing this to myself?
Why are things not flowing for me?
Why is there resistance to my purpose?
Why do I feel not good enough?
Why, why, why?
I got so wrapped up in achieving and chasing what others were doing that I lost sight of who I am and what my superpower is.
I was so busy trying to make people comfortable so that I didn’t feel guilt or shame for shining (whattttttt!). I downplayed my greatness and settled for mediocrity so that I didn’t have to feel the sting of potential judgement. 👉🏻Insert pity party for one 🤕👈🏼
When our ego's try to control everything, we lose the feeling of fulfillment because we are disconnected from our hearts. This no longer became an option, I couldn't withstand the pain, suffering, and resistance any longer--- I surrendered. White flag up. I can’t do this by pushing and grinding my way to a misconception of “success”. Time to start asking myself some hard questions.
I began fully diving into meditation guided by my first spiritual teacher who just so happened to be my Great Uncle. He taught me so many things that I never knew but were in plain sight. A disciplined few years of digging up the things that were limiting my full potential led me to an understanding that I wish for everyone in this world. I delved into books, audios, classes, and a structured yoga practice. I wanted to understand myself so that I could be of service to my highest potential to others.
Eventually through the commitment, I found a rhythm that created momentum and increased my awareness nearly on demand. I began to go inward daily, hourly, every minute and looking to my higher self what she wanted and what she knew to be true. It was painful to face my own doings, yet brilliantly liberating as I started to see shifts in my disposition and miraculous manifestations in this physical world.
*The words became kinder yet more firm. My mind wanted to argue and resist, but I couldn’t deny that she was right.*
When I asked “Why am I creating this drama for myself?”
My highest most loving self (imagine the way you would speak to your child) answered, “You are afraid of what it would be like to let go of who you used to be.”
“Why am I so afraid, I don’t want it. I don’t want to feel this way.” I would plea.
“You are afraid because it’s uncertain. The way you are is all you know. Letting that go, who would you be? Are you ready to let her go and be who you want to be? Can you stop resisting what you deserve?” My loving self said.
“I am. I am ready. What do I need to do?” I question.
“You step into your power. You do what makes you feel purposeful and inspired at any cost. You get vulnerable and brave. Do the things that are ignited from your heart! Let go of the limitations.” She shouted!
And these are the conversations I have with myself over and over and over again until little by little it sticks a bit more. I keep coming back to the WHY? Why am I doing this and is it aligned with what i know to be true in my heart.
My why at my company Limitless Hairdresser is to share with you the practical tools that have helped me go from helpless, out of alignment, and stuck in my head to empowered, heart forward, and utilizing the super powers that we all have and just need to find!
Listen love, you are made of limitless light, and you have a huge role here on this planet--in this lifetime. I am so here for it and if you have made it this far I know you are too!
Let’s go on this journey together of uncovering our super powers and owning who we are meant to be NOW...RIGHT NOW. Haven't you waited long enough to fully live your life?
I hope you’ll continue this amazing journey with me!
You deserve this.
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